Monday, November 17, 2008

I Still Cry

Butterfly Kisses Painting, originally uploaded by snowtigress.

I Still Cry

I`m making flowers out of paper
While darkness takes the afternoon
I know that they won`t last forever
But real ones fade away to soon

It`s just that I recall September
It`s just that I still hear your song
It`s just I can`t seem to remember
Forever more those days are gone

I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you`re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry

I still cry sometimes when I rememeber you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you`re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Intro to Modeling

As 8pm SLT approached I found while I was slightly less apprehensive than I was during the Orientation I was still notably anxious about this first class. Who would be my classmates? Who would be the instructor? Would I fit in? Would I trip over my tail and fall flat on my nose in front of everyone? Luckily the latter of the list did not happen.

Our first night at the MODA Modeling school was spent in an intimate classroom around a cozy table discussing the core values MODA is built upon as well as a brief outline of what the course will entail. I found over all that everyone was pleasant, friendly, and very helpful. Still my only concern is my RL schedule interfering with the MODA class schedule. Thursday nights in particular may cause a conflict. But I'm going to stick it out and do my best to complete every class, every course, every assignment.

Its refreshing to be involved in something again. Its uplifting to have a goal and a purpose instead of the shadow of misdirection that I've wandered aimlessly under for the past year. My one hope is that with my change now that I still make Him happy and proud of me. Its His smile that watches over me that I hope to never cause to faulter.

Thursday, March 20, 2008


On a shopping spree with a dear friend of mine last night, Christine, she and I discovered that in all of SL Neko's tend to be highly over looked as models. Well, its something I've suspected for quite some time as I've wanted to get into modeling but as a devout and faithful Neko its proved a difficult to say the least. So what is it about ears and a tail that makes us so non-photogenic? Can't say its because of our skin as up until recently I've always worn a "normal" skin. Although Nomine has an absolutely fantabulous Neko tiger skin. Beeeea-u-tiful! Munch's new line of skins has THE best lip proportion and shape in SL in my opinion. But aside from how fabulous her skins are, what exactly is it about Neko's that designers shy away from in using us for their advertising campaign?

Now before anyone gets all upset I'm not sitting here throwing prejudice or segregation accusations. I honestly think its more a matter of misunderstand and fear of the unknown. I don't believe there is a great conspiracy out there to oust the Neko population from the SL modeling world. Neko's are used a good bit in cyberpunk and steampunk, even a touch of goth from time to time. But I'd love to see them used more and become more mainstream.

*gasps* Did I just say that? Why yes I did. There was a time when I was highly offended at the growing Neko population in SL. Being one of the first Neko's here 3 years ago it was frustrating to see such a boom in the growth of these hybrid cats. I was no longer unique, different, special. But, just like every hooman, or every furry, or elf, or dragon, every Neko has her own unique personality. Each of us are filled with playful quirks that stand us apart from each other. And it is these very playful traits that I feel would lend itself so well to the camera. And I think its time I figure out a way to open up the doors. I'm proud of my ears and tail and wish to show them off, and what better way than through the beauty and art of still photography and fashion.

After all aren't we the purrrrfect ones to walk the catwalk?

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Memories of Him

Reading through old LiveJournal posts i came across something i wrote for Thor, my Teddy Bear, way back in 2006 before we officially started dating. i knew even then how much i loved Him and what He meant to me and my life. Such a beautiful man with an amazing heart and passion. i miss Him still.

A Time For Us

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*A Time For Us

There is a place I dream of
I can close my eyes and see it
It exists only in my mind
Yet has a warmth of reality
A place for us
Somewhere in between
Where miles vanish
And time has no meaning

There is a moment I long for
I can picture it so clearly
A desire so strong that it burns inside me
And feeds the flames of my passion for you
A moment for us
Time inbetween
the distance that divides us
Where hours have no meaning

A place for us
together alone
to tangle and touch
and to never let go
A time for us
Moments unending
of passion and tenderness
a dream worth living

There is a place I wish for
I tingle at the thought
A sensation so addicting
that to feel it would be to never let go
A place for us
Time extending infinitly
Wrapped up in your arms
in all the world no better place to be

A place for us
together alone
to tangle and touch
and to never let go
A time for us
Moments unending
of passion and tenderness
a dream worth living

There will be a time for us, if only in my dreams.


*for someone so special it is impossible to put into words what my heart feels.

Basic Math not so basic

20 designs, 18 boards.... HOW did that happen. I have the demos of the 2 missing designs as I showed them to friends and Sebastian told me to take one of each design to test and keep. Yet when the boards were delivered there were only 18. Now I have to wait until the next go round of board production, when ever THAT may be, to get the last 2 designs out for sales. And go figure, one of the designs was a remake from the original board line converted to fit onto sculptie, and it was one of the best selling designs.


This shop is going to be the cause of my insanity.

Oh well.

Friday, February 8, 2008

My Heart

My Heart, originally uploaded by snowtigress.

Every night in my dreams
I see you. I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not
go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

The Tool....

...has registered to surf. I also found out a sweet friend that I've known through the surfing community and who actually lives close by in RL married him in game. *shakes her head sadly*. I don't know whether to feel sorry for her or mad at him. Any one that is ever associated with him is ruined by reputation alone. *sighs* Oh well, there is not much I can do except keep my fingers crossed she doesn't get hurt too badly. And as far as the surfing competition at Monkeh Barrel, well, it should be interesting.

Ok, on to less negative things.

Being a part of the SLSA board of directors this season is very stressful. I know its something Thor wanted to do, but I don't think we ever truly anticipated the sport to grow to the size that it is now. There are so many changes that need to be made to accommodate the sheer number of people interested in competing. I honestly don't see that happening yet this season. Maybe, this season if enough people step up to help us we can lay the foundation for these changes and implement them by the start of next season. Already we have Ritch wanting to step up as a Director or Advisor. He is great at organizing, passionate, and has some really wonderful ideas. With Craig and Rani stepping down at the end of their term it'll be good having someone like Ritch to fill the vacancy. But for now we just work on getting the competition up at Monkeh Barrel, an Epic competition.

Monkeh Barrel is right across from my home on Heliopolis and also adjoining the Ambrosia sim which is where the new Misfit Surf Shop will be located. Hopefully, I can get the new shop up and built before the competition starts. Sebastian has been a tremendous help with finding blueprints for me and sending me an ungodly amount of textures to use. He still intimidates me some, The Mighty Sebastian, but little by little I'm learning that He can be a good friend. He's super smart and creative and is a good listener. Still has an imposing presence about Him, but all in all He's one of the nice ones. Remind me to thank Aries for telling me how silly I was to be scared of Him. Its what prompted me to open my mouth and want to be friends with Him (Sebastian).

So, enough rambling for now. More on Monkeh Barrel another day.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

To a dear friend from long before SL

Draek, originally uploaded by snowtigress.

Here are my hands, hold them when You stumble, use their strength to face Your fears.
Here are my shoulders, use them when You cry, soak them with Your tears.
Here are my ears, open up and release Your pain, i will always hear.
Here is my heart, giving, accepting, loving unconditionally, know there is one that truly cares.
Here is my friendship, call upon it when ever You need, for You i am always here.

Never forget, i am always here.

"You have always been a friend to me"

Well you and i
Were buddies
And weve been since we first met
Me any you
Well weve sure been through
Our share of laughter and regret

Lord knows weve had our bad days
And more than once weve disagreed
But youve always been a friend to me

You can be so stubborn
Theres times I think you just like to fight
And I hope and pray
I live to see a day
When you say I might be right

And theres times Id rather kill you
Than listen to your honesty
But youve always been a friend to me

Youve always been
Time and again
The one to take my hand
And show to me its okay to be
Just the way I am
With no apology

Oh youve always been
And you will till God knows when
Yes youve always been a friend to me

Friday, January 25, 2008

Maternity in Mourning

Maternity in Mourning, originally uploaded by snowtigress.

Standing on the shores of forever i cry and whisper His name to the waves and the wind. Some day we'll be together again.

This picture was taken inside of SL the night before going into labor. I blogged earlier covering the whys and particulars of our decision to have an SL pregnancy and the decisions i made after losing Thor in RL.